dilemma

its kinda ironic to see a guy who had gud grades in english, but when he grewed up. his english was in a mess. to see dat guy, who enrolled in a english speaking preschool. years between preschool and primary school, his days were filled with reading english books and doing exercises on them. when in boarding school, finally represent the school for an essay writing contest.. then, evrything starts to crumble.. the usual 'i have frends who talks in english' are dwindling. subjects needed to be thought in english are all in malay.. 24-7 talkin in malay suddenly turn the grade A english with a c5 malay, to a total malay speakin dude whose grammar all messed up..

sad isn't it? then an idea came up.. blogging. a wonderful idea on starting back the gears of the brain to finally grind it to get back into shape. to fully express and in the same time, improve his english back to normal again. its a journey, that havent yet finished. its just started.. but when things are looking bright, suddenly the skies turned dark.. makin him thinking again. is it OK to do this??

its really bummed me up. blogging is like a tool of expressing your inner feelings and your views on life. the name of this blog really describes dat the author is not your nerdy-follow-by-the-book kind of a guy.. its frustrating when someone juz read your blog and jokingly said dat the writings are all out of place, and just hope it gets better. but, someone else took it seriously and banged the author on da head and gave him sum ultimatums.. even it was like, its sumthing dat is not dat big, why turn it up as if the world might crumble?? also, blogging is a tool for means of expressions. and sum ppl express themselves in diaries or journals.. well, the author here doesn't do that.. this is how he expresses..

so, it took a few days of cooling of and reflect back if its a gud idea or not.. then i got it. hey, the title of the blog already summed up my perspectives.. so be it!! and to be honest, my brain doesnt think in victorian english or sastera melayu.. its rojak!! coz we live in a rojak world.. and now im more determined to rojak the words in this blog. not only will i put malay words in english sentences, lets say i put in cantonese, german, japanese and hokkien as well?? hahaha dat be cool.. ( i used to have cantonese speakin frends when i was in middle school, and now in my workplace, i got frends who are speakin cantonese and hokkien as well.. so i picked up some of it lor.. german?? well its wat i took when i was in highschool. japanese?? i took it while i studied for my degree)

so folks... nothing can stop me from bloggin.. if i have a freetime to write, i write it as i want to have it written!! if there are more roadblocks in the future, i just say "nande-yo!!!" and move on!!